As the year comes to an end, I find myself thinking over everything, as I sometimes do. A self-analysis, re-evaluation of goals, tasks, accomplishments, challenges. I ponder whether or not I am meeting my full intentions. Where I am on that journey, or have I even started to crack the surface of what's needed to get it done. I don't know about you, but I always end up with a list of things that I need to do to get to that place "in my head." The only question that remains is how much time I need to finish, a deadline. In my moment of planning and analysis, not once do I consider my reality. Eventually my daily task of full-time work, classes, commitments, writing, etc kicks in-but in my time of self-reflection, I'm laser focused on what I want to do now. Once my plan checks in with my schedule, then I'm forced to sit down and re-evaluate. That second self-analysis often doesn't take place until I'm tired and burnt out from the stress of my own mandatory deadlines. I don't know, maybe that's just me. If it is, then that's alright. Thank God that he is a God of relationship, and he allows me to come to him again, and again, and again. He is my refuge, my secret place in the midst of my patterns of behaviors and struggles.
With that being said, I am constantly learning to include prayer and gratitude with my planning and self-analysis, thanking God for his POWERFUL presence in my life. I am also learning to include discernment, so that these plans that pop into my head are aligned with his will for my life, and that it is pleasing to him.
I learned long ago that it's great to have a plan with an active daily regimen to get it done, but you have to leave room for the author and finisher of it all to do what only he can do best. God, I pray that you are always there with me, always!!
Sincerely,
Lati
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